Thank you for your kind words and messages (i think i replied to most of you, so thank you again for the gesture), I’m not sad however or feeling down regarding my posts etc.
My life is good and I’m very grateful for the comings and goings of it all, weather they be wonderful or short falls, it’s simply all part of it and accepting that is the first step to living positively.
I’m neither burdened or weighed down by responsibility of the people in my life, i’m happy to be depended on. It’s just disheartening to think disappointment and not being able to perfectly solve everything is inevitable. The fact that one person is limited to only be able to do so much just feels somehow inadequate to me.
It’s quite hard when everybody expects you to be there for them when they need you, somebody is bound to end up disappointed.
A conundrum, a catch 22, a lose-lose situation any way you look at it if you ask me.
It’s actually a good deal because I get to order extra things from him to bring me back from Nepal, like dad level courier services of cheap Asian goods.
Dad is going to Nepal today for a month. About to go drive him to Heathrow airport. It is currently 7.15am and I had decent sleep. Tired from last night huh.
Pretty jealous dad just gets to have a break like mid year. I would love to go travel around the homeland for a month lucky son of a b sorry not sorry dad. But at the same time, he’s going back to deal with the familia and i could not handle that BS ever, cus they’re assholes.
Day started off well & will end well too.
It is always a marginal fine line between knowing when to hold on & knowing when to let go.
It seems inevitably, whatever decision is made between the two at the crux, it is made with the best of intentions and for the greater good.
However, almost in cruel fashion as it is often so with the heart, it always leaves enough room for regret.